Hi beautiful. Sit down. I need to talk to you. I know you don't like being told what to do and not do. I know you dislike authority. I am not the authority... I am you. I was you. You will be me. You are me. I know how you feel right now. You can't imagine a moment in your life when you won't feel like this, but you will. Sit down and listen.
You might be different, but you are valid. You feel misunderstood, but you will learn how to make yourself heard. You feel lonely, you never had friends, you dealt with adult bullshit way too young... but you made it.
You are a survivor.
You will become the woman you have always dreamed of being.
You will realize your worth. You will realize that no one can make you feel inferior without your consent.
There will be some serious shit you'll have to go through. You will suffer through hell but you will return. People will rub your face first in the dirt but you will use your secret skill: your brain.
You know that thing inside your head that got damaged by your oh way too many concussions? That thing that you would like to pull out of that god damn head of yours and smash to the ground? Just like in a Walking Dead episode? Yeah... You will learn how to use it to win.
People did you wrong. People hurt you in the most horrific ways. People don't see you as who you are and rarely will they be the ones who do. However, you will realize that the most beautiful souls will cross your path unexpectedly one day... And those people... You will take care of them. You will because you will see it in their eyes. You will have to learn how to be sociable, be yourself, your true self....
You will break free of the chains that are shackling you. You will get hurt in the process, there is no doubt and I won't lie to you.
The pursuit of truth will hurt you. Oh you fucking will... You will get injured, physically, mentally, spiritually even. You will bleed, suffer, scream and cry. It is going to fucking hurt but you will know, somewhere, somehow, that you are not doing it for nothing. You are not stupid. You didn't deserve all that mess and suffering. You will acknowledge that fact but you will also understand why...
You will understand why. You will understand that you are part of the 0.01% who beat the odds. You will realize that you lived through hell and came back for a reason. You will be proud of yourself... and you should be. You will understand how you can change people's lives... and you will.
You will also do stupid shit. You will make unwise decisions. You have so much to learn still...
You will hurt yourself because those kids at school always told you to. You will try to erase yourself from the earth many times... But you will fail.
You will fail, because you never wanted to die.
You will fail, because it was never close to the end.
You will fail, because it was only the beginning.
You will hurt yourself that's for sure... but you will see your grandmother willingly pass away in front of you. It will make you realize how death is such a beautiful thing when you are at peace, but also the scariest thing when you are not. You will think about her. You will read her book. This will inspire you... She will be an inspiration for you... and she will always be your greatest reminder of what death really is.
Death is the end.
When you close your eyes... it is all over.
Like... O-V-E-R.
You won't see your loved ones again. When your eyes shut, they shut forever...
And that's when you realize that you don't want to die.
But you will.
You have seen it, you have experienced it in your dreams... but that's what it took. That's what it took to make it clear to you for real that life isn't a gamble. If you need help, get it.
Phoenix, that's what you are. In spirituality, the phoenix is often viewed as a symbol of death and rebirth, renewal, and transformation. Its cyclical nature of dying and rising from the ashes represents the idea that from every ending comes another beginning.
The Phoenix can also be seen as a symbol of strength and resilience, as it endures the intense flames of its death and rises anew, stronger than before.
This can serve as an inspiration to those going through difficult times, encouraging them to have faith in their ability to rise from the ashes of their challenges. Overall, the phoenix represents the idea of transformation and growth through adversity, and the belief that every ending is a new beginning.
You will never recognize the level of suffering you experienced.
You will never take anything for granted.
You will never hurt yourself again.
You know you are just an amount of cells and atoms roaming a huge fucking rock gravitating somewhere somehow... You are just a non-typical human being who had no choice but to experience life in a dark twisted special way. You are you, I am you. I am you, and we are one.
You will always wear the scars, but those scars will become your greatest accomplishment.
You will decide that you are not a victim... you will decide that those who did you wrong are the ones who suffer, not you. Never you.
You will realize that all your dark and twisted paths led you to where you are today: free, happy, at peace, and in love with who you are.
You had a difficult journey that lead you to who you are.
You are a warrior, you chose to face your enemies, look them in the eyes and say: ''I am thankful''.
You are in harmony. You are in harmony, with your past, present and future... because without harmony, chaos remains.
Now, your journey will never be over. Life is not about finding yourself as they say, but about creating yourself.
You can't always control what goes on outside...
but you can always control what goes on inside.
Always look forward.
And always pay it forward. You will promise yourself to be the change you want to see in the world. You will fulfill that promise. You will use your experiences to help others in need. You will defend those who can't... because you will see who you used to be.
You always say ''throw me to the wolves and I will return leading the pack''... You will see what not many people see in you: intelligence, beauty inside and out, darkness and light. You will be proud of yourself... no matter what life throws at you.
You are beautiful darling.
You are strong.
You are a beast in sheep's clothing.
You will love yourself and those who love you too.
You will always be thankful to wake up each morning.
I hope you have your own little family one day.
I hope you keep pushing for what you want.
I hope you will one day wake up next to a miniature version of yourself, and you will be the happiest woman ever... I know you will take care of them.
I always thought you never took care of yourself for ending up in all those situations... but I realized I was wrong. You took care of yourself all along. You were too young, but you needed those events to be who you are now.
Si vis pacem, para bellum.
If you want peace, prepare for war... and so you did. If you want peace and harmony, you must be ready to fight against the negative thoughts, emotions, and temptations that can disrupt your inner peace. By cultivating inner strength, resilience, and self-discipline, one can overcome these challenges and achieve a state of spiritual peace.
I am at peace.
I am thankful.
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